Sometimes i think im doing ok. I know im still a sinner, but sometimes i think "hey, im doing ok. i haven't really done anything, im on the right track." silly me. thats a big booboo right there. its called pride. im really bad when it comes to that. thats how it was for me tonight. i was standing there singing and thought, yay jesus im not struggling. im not doing stupid things that are making you mad. ok first off, im thinking this while im supposed to be worshipping him. im there singing my little heart out not even concentrating on who im singing too. it was just an action. then when matt was speaking, i wasn't really connecting with his words. i was listening and everything but nothing resonated. (i hope i used that correctly) during the final song i made a point to not let my mind wonder, because i owe it to him to give him something. during all this im still on my original thought. "im a good kind, i don't screw up that often." HA

God has a way of showing you that you are not as great as you think you are. Want to know what this way was for me? seeing this. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^ (that means look up)

God has the beautiful picture in my life. It is absolutely stunning. but im a failure and i screw up that beautiful picture. but each time i fail he loves me enough to forgive me when i ask (well he does anyways) but know what else he does? he completely tears away the picture that i ruined and gives me a new fresh start. seriously how lucky am i?!?!?!

you are my reason. you are my hope. you are my salvation. you are my reminder. you are my strength. you are my friend. you are my provider. you are my everything