ah the memories

we put my dog down today. i cried. actually more like bawled. we knew we were going to have to do it sooner or later but us doing it this week was a huge surprise. he had a seizure tuesday night and my parents decided that we needed to do it now instead of wait cause we didn't want him to get worse. we were supposed to take him wednesday but we did it today. that was nice cause we got some more time with him but i still wish we could have waited :(

oh well at least he knew he was loved. i miss my doggy :(


on a happier note, this weekend is Dnow!!! im excited :))) i get to spend the whole weekend with Nikki, Sarah, and some of those amazing junior girls. its going to be sick. im just sad that i have to miss the actual worship time tomorrow. stupid honor society.

anyways i hope you all enjoy your weekend

how wrong was i

last night was an eye opener for me. Matt's message was about friendship, how it should be a give and take relationship. I remember Amanda saying that its important to have an equal amount of giving and an equal amount of taking. I always thought i was one of those people who gives everything and gets nothing in return. After last night i realize im not. i give a little but expect a ton in return. I expect people to go out of their way to include me, make me feel comfortable, and want to hang out yet im not willing to go out of my way to be myself, get to know people more, or make plans to hang out with them. I am now officially a taker. Its going to take everything to get out of that, but i want to be able to have close friendships and know that im doing everything i can. i love every single one of the people in my life and i want them to know that.

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