the voices in my head

are so messed up. people shouldn't listen to those voices unless they tell you to run around screaming, set off fireworks, light stuff on fire, or stuff like that. when they start telling you how worthless you are, how no one likes you, how everyone thinks your a freak, or how your better off moving to another city is when you stop listening to those voices. those voices screw up your mind, your heart, and your attitude. I've been having lots of problems with those voices, especially when it comes to how people think of me. God is amazing though, and reminds me how valued and loved i am. i love how i have these preconceived notions and God comes along and totally screws em up :DDDDDD

go listen to black eyed peas- i gotta feeling
agraceful- the great i am

i love music. i love friends. i love it when i get to enjoy amazing music with amazing friends.

today was the scream the prayer tour. i was pretty excited because The Chariot, Agraceful, Oh Sleeper, Haste The Day, Plea for Purging, For Today, Project 86, Sleeping Giant, Gwen Stacy, Corpus Christi, and another band were playing. Nialls, Anna, Ian, and Sara picked me and chris up and 230, got to the place at around 3, and didn't get into the doors till about 4. We alternated between buy shirts, and listening to the bands. Agraceful was stinkin amazing as always and we got to hang out with Lee, the guitarist, for a little while. Porject 86 was awesome!!!! i had always wanted to see those guys and i was not disappointed. For today, gwen stacy, plea for purging, sleeping giant, corpus christi, and the other band i can't remember were good too. The chariot was awesome. chris and i got in the front and within like the first 5 minutes i got punched in the chin and had a guy fall on me. also an amazing mosh pit, lost my showe (found it though), got punched in the lip, then chris finally realized i was getting beat up so he got behind me to keep me from getting worse. after the chariot, went and vegged for a bit. listened to the last couple of songs of Haste the day (amazing) then we left. gah today was awesome.

opus

this has been one intense week. too tired to write it all but mostly.... good friend rejected me (don't ask im not going to tell), worship was one of the best, i was able to actually talk and pray on stage in front of a group of people (TWICE!!), and the most amazing youth pastor i have ever had left. God is seriously trying to test me right now. but im going to get through it with Him.