New Mexico Tech

So today was the day that my family and i were going down to Socoro to check out NMT. We had been planning this for a while because my parents wanted me to start looking at coleges now instead of later. So we got up at 6 so we could leave the house at 6:45. Took us about an hour and a half to get down to Tech so we didn't eat anything before we left. So we got to the campus and they served us breakfast then had a little introduction thing. Then the went over 3 different things like registration, dorms, and just what goes on there. Then we had a break for lunch and then started out for 2 demonstrations/labs. I did mechanical engineering which consisted of aerospace (like building stuff like cars and such), biochemical (health and body stuff.. kinda like biology), and explosives. Out of those 3 the aerospace and explosives looked pretty cool. Then we went over to the physics building. There was aerophysics which was weird and atmophysics, which involved stuff with like weather and the atmospher. The atmosphysics looked pretty cool. So i haven't decided whether im going there or not but it was cool to look. so now im tired, hurting, but glad i went.

Home..

When i left my first church, i was kinda sad but excited to start over somewheres else. Now thats ive been at this church for over a year, my feelings for it are not what i expected. I had been at my old church since i was born, my parents there before too. I made all my best friends there, had my first crushes there, and almost had my frist bf there. Had bad experiences happen there too but i loved being there. It was like home. i could spend hours on the campus even without someone i knew being with me. So when i left i was a sad. but i thought that my new church would be pretty cool and i would love it as much or more. At first it was like that. Yet now that ive been there, its different. the only services that i actually enjoy going to are the main and when i do go i like being by myself. Its not like i don't have friends its just that i don't feel welcome really. Normally im pretty outgoing. Its just with the group of people that i know from church i don't like being myself. I don't usually like putting myself in a position where i know im going to get hurt and i almost always get hurt when im myself. So it was really nice to go abck to my old church last night. I was nervous before because i hadn't been there in a year but i was also excited to see all the people who pretty much made me who i am today (other than God). So i got there around 6 cause i was meeting my friend there to hang out. well he was going to be late so i just went to the middle school building to see if i could find anyone i knew. It was awesome i got to see my favorite youth leader and pretty much the most amazing pastor ever!! Hes 6'5', 23 and acts like a 15 year old. i love it. so i talked with them for a bit then went to put my stuff down in the highschool building. After that i went and walked around in the bookstore/coffee shop. Then my friend showed up and we just hung out the rest of the night. it was really funny cause while hanging with him, i got to see some of my friends that i hadn't seen or talked to in a while. so we would walk up and id say hi and they would be like "OH MY GOSH!" and give me a hug. haha it was nice to feel loved. I missed those guys. So service was interesting.. like it wasn't great and it was horrible. but other than that the night was amazing. i kinda wish i had never left but i wouldn't have met some really cool people if i hadn't. so there is my deep post for like the year.

So i haven't posted in forever.. one because this has been blocked from the world and i haven't had time to write and two because ive been grounded. interesting story really. lets just say it involves myspace, a picture, and lying. didn't have a happy ending. but it taught me a lesson. so while i was grounded i got some interesting things started. for about a month now i haven't been going to any highschool services and have been sitting alone for the main service. its not like i was mad at anyone i just wanted to be alone and to be honest i loved being by myself. no distractions and i was actually comfortable with no one around me. so i think i might continue doing that. then i was sick for about a week and missed school. the next week i went back and got news that i had a science fair that saturday.. two days from that day of class. talk about freaking out. so all day friday my mom and i were rushing around trying to finish my science project and THANKFULLY we got it done. science fair was pretty boring though and wasn't worth all the work i put into it. then a week goes by and its valentines week!!! i didn't have one so i was kinda sad then decided to ask my friend elizabeth and she said yes!!! so on wednesday i went and bought her this chocolate rose. then on thursday for school i gave her the rose and she gave me one too!!! it was a pretty amazing day. school went well other than me being dead tired. Then for small group my friend that i haven't seen since september came!!! man that was awesome. missed him so much!!! so yea he was at group and we just partied cause it was valentines. even though he had to leave early and we didn't get to say goodbye that made that the best valentines ever. and for anyone who ever reads this no i don't like him like that. the kid just ahs a special place in my heart. so now its saturday and im nervous cause im going to my old church to hang out with my friend who came to group. so im like nervous.. but i think it will go well.