are you kidding me, God?

mmm i love making people laugh. i can't describe the joy that fills my heart when that happens, even when people laugh at me. (if its in a good way not in a mean way :p) i love making people at work laugh. it makes me feel like im not just the weird one, but that i can sorta get along with people. i love my job. i love the God who gave me this job :D

so tomorrow is valentines. normall i don't care about valentines cause ive never really had a guy, it was just a day where i could hang out with all my friends and look cute :). this year i decided i didn't like it. some of you reading this know why, and others don't so don't ask me :). these past couple of days have been interesting though. ive been telling God that i can't handle whats been going on, that i didn't want to deal with it or any other situation like it. haha God doesn't listen :p. when you think life can't get more confusing He decides to throw something else into your life to see what is going to happen. i just hope i can make the decisions that are going to be what He wants, but also that arent going to hurt someone that i care about.

oh well life is interesting.

:D bon voyage all you sweethearts