how wrong was i

last night was an eye opener for me. Matt's message was about friendship, how it should be a give and take relationship. I remember Amanda saying that its important to have an equal amount of giving and an equal amount of taking. I always thought i was one of those people who gives everything and gets nothing in return. After last night i realize im not. i give a little but expect a ton in return. I expect people to go out of their way to include me, make me feel comfortable, and want to hang out yet im not willing to go out of my way to be myself, get to know people more, or make plans to hang out with them. I am now officially a taker. Its going to take everything to get out of that, but i want to be able to have close friendships and know that im doing everything i can. i love every single one of the people in my life and i want them to know that.

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