patience is a virtue

i am not a very patient person, so when it comes to waiting for something, i suck. i hate waiting for answers, to find out if this is worth it, and what im supposed to do with all this anyways. I know God has a plan and everything but i have no idea if im supposed to keep acting the same i have for the past couple of months, or to stop going out of my way to make my actions agree with my feelings. i don't know if im supposed to assume that his "no" means no forever or no for just the time being. i don't know what im supposed to do!! ahhh and He is being silent. i don't like it when He is silent, cause that involves patience. humph, i think God is set to ruin me. but hey.... thats a good thing :)

there will be good that comes out of this. gotta trust Him