sometimes i wish i could move to anothe city so i can have a fresh start at life, with people, with school, and with myself. im so tired of dealing with the same things day in and day out. sometimes its alright, but other times i want a second chance. i feel really bad saying that, cause He has already given me a second chance at life and i don't like it. i want to be happy, or even content, with what i have. the only thing that even comes close is the fact that He loves me. everything else just makes me want to shoot something. well, maybe ill get it when i transfer to who knows where. i just stress out :D

on a way happier note, i think i actually figured out where im going to school. my dad and i went to senior day at unm today and i am now officialy smarter. plus i have some more arm muscles from carrying that bag of a billion brochures :]. anyways we went the engineering session at the end of the day, and i discovered that almost all of the schools in NM offer chemical engineering but not with explosives, which is what i want to do. i didn't know that. i automatically assumed that explosives when under chemical for any school but i guess not. so after the session i went to talk to the professor and he said the only school in NM he knows of that offers explosivs is Tech. so if everything goes according to plan, i will be a Techy next fall. im just a teensy bit sad that there is nothing down there, cause with the way things are turning out up here, i might not want to come homee. idk maybe God will build something sweet down there... and maybe not. we shall see.

live long and posper :D